hemocianin

A sensual beating silence befalls the still night air The tested wills of many men Result in his despair Before him lies a battleground The lies of many years For him it seems the time has come To loosen all his fears With haste the feeling comes around He's truly not alone Amidst the raging battle His thoughts are coming home The truth begins to thicken All fears are set aside The present turns to past on him And takes him for the ride All is lost for something gained He turns face toward the Sun He deals with one together now No longer does he run The masters show the way To ease the pain that binds The Gods of truth h

i am totally lost and scared of myself...and i have no idea why i should keep going... for me nothing makes sense anymore...i do not understand a lot of things and i do not even want to... i am running around...everything is always the same...i am not able to make any decision... i have no idea what i should do...i just want to break those damn chains and be free... i fear so many things...and my fears make me paralyzed...i see all the mechanisms i created them...and now i have no idea how to stop them...they took the control over me...

i had great time yesterday on a small sort of spontaneous concert of the band Fair Haven and yeah their music always makes me feel better (www.myspace.com/fairhavenrocks) i feel kinda alive now...